ฟังเพลงIs This What You Wanted

Write this down on my headstone

It wasn't what I hoped for

I'm twenty four and I'm older

I still got a world of doubt on my shoulder

That's been eating me alive

From the inside out

What am I supposed to say

That I'm happy now

Walk the block in the morning

Were the weekends always this boring

Fall asleep in the shower

The water runs for an hour

Sit alone at the table

Check the fridge again maybe

This is all that I hoped for

But I was dumb when I left home

Gotta restless head in the nighttime

I haven't slept that well in a good while

I'd take pills just to calm down

But I don't need one more thing to depend on

I've been home for a week

Pushing through the pain

But it's all the same to me

Hours into days

Walk the block in the morning

Are the weekends always this boring

Fall asleep in the shower

The water runs for an hour

Sit alone at the table

Check the fridge again maybe

This is all that I hoped for

But I was dumb when I left home

There's this weight in my chest

It keeps my head down shortens my breath

It flattens my highs fuels my regrets

I'm scared it'll hold me till I'm dead

Walk the block in the morning

Were the weekends always this boring

Fall asleep in the shower

The water runs for an hour

Sit alone at the table

Check the fridge again maybe

This is all that I hoped for

That I was grown when I left home