Hurt Myself (Explicit)

Hurt Myself (Explicit) - Ekoh/Nate Vickers

Lyrics by：Ekoh/Tyler Carter

Composed by：Ekoh/Tyler Carter

Produced by：Matty Beats/Cvrt Martin

I can't make you pray for me now

Don't need your sympathy I

Just want the love that I deserve when

All I do is hurt myself hurt myself

And I've been tryin' to hide

But I know it's just

A matter of time until I break down

All the stress that I hold too much weight now

Got the pills I don't really wanna take

But it feels like I walk in the devil's playground

Rain clouds in the head too often

Brain-dead in the bed that's a coffin

Havin' thoughts of the head blown

Off every time that I close my eyes no stop it

I don't think that anyone gets it

So I don't wanna tell anybody what

Really goin' on in my head

I just wanna be alone and listen to

The music and let it tell

Me the way I need to feel

So I don't think I'm defective

It's getting worse every day that'll pass

Getting too high give it's way for the crash

Started when I met my dad and then he left again

Abandonment the only thing I expect and can't dream

When I'm in a nightmare

Everything goes wrong what do I care

Tryin' to grab happiness 'cause it's right there

But it slips through the grip

And it's gone in an instant a misfit

Insisting on always tryin' to fit in

Got a need for the love

But for me I don't give f****

Enemies wanna see me fall

I feel like I'm at the last resort 'bout to give in

The churches start to feel like prison cells

'Cause everybody'd rather judge than help

I can't make you pray for me now

Don't need your sympathy I

Just want the love that I deserve when

All I do is hurt myself

Tell me I'm okay

Tell me this is life

And it'll all work out in the long run

If it's not true lie to me

'Cause I need some hope to

Help me out when the heart's shut

Detached I barely feel alive

Tell me this is all worth the pain and time

I've been slippin' now barely got the grip

Where is all the friends

Who said they would stick by me

Look into the eyes see

Right into the soul weighed down so heavy

But I'm highly emotional

But never vulnerable the bandwidth

Too much 'bout to overload

The overdose and no one close when

I got something inside I really hate

And wanna cut and let it bleed out

Hard to let in the light

When there's a critic inside

That won't stop speaking up

Bringing me down

The feeling like I'm in a battle with

Two different people inside of me

The ones who been trying to hold me

Together is not the one who's in the driver's seat

I've got this need to escape to the point

Where I'm sick of my f******* sobriety

Losing my footing and I wish somebody

Would tell me that I'll be okay if I try to be

The churches start to feel like prison cells

'Cause everybody'd rather judge than help

I can't make you pray for me now

Don't need your sympathy I

Just want the love that I deserve when

All I do is hurt myself

Pray for me now

Don't need your sympathy I

Just want the love that I deserve when

All I do is hurt myself